I was sat at work in a meeting, squinting at the powerpoint presentation 10 metres away. I couldn’t read a thing, and naturally assuming that my eyes were perfect I consulted my neighbours who told me they had no such issue. I assumed it was a bad joke on their part, insisting that I should get my eyes checked, until everyone stopped laughing. Thankfully the room was mostly full of strangers as I would have otherwise ignored them and gone to the projector and focused it to my own (inferior) optical requirements in the false belief my belief that my body is infallible.
I’m not going to start blogging on my fears of ageing until I pass 30, but right now I’m in a vulnerable place: my body is fallible. What started as a slight suspicion formed during this year’s Roland Garos that I am now older than most of the top male tennis players, has now turned into the realization that not only will I not have time to train for and win a Grand Slam because all my competitors would have the benefit of youth on their side, but also I because I would also not be able to see the ball.
Since my first day at work in Tajikistan, aged 24, I’ve had to convince everyone that I was older than I appeared (mainly by not opening my mouth). Now that I wear glasses, I have to argue to convince people that I am the youngest in the office. The rapid onset of blindness is even affecting my sense of humour. My colleague noted that I was wearing new glasses and I responded that working in the humanitarian sector was like masturbating: if you do too much of it you go blind. Apparently they don’t have that saying in Indonesia.
Wearing glasses does have its benefits. The new HD TV which we bought a month ago has suddenly got even more HD. Actually that’s the only benefit I can think of. How are you supposed to select your first pair of glasses at the age of 29? It’s like redefining a personal style which I never had in the first place. It takes me several days to choose a new pair of shoes, yet these things are supposed to go on my feet. No matter how many different styles I tried on, I either look like Sven Goran Erikson or Dennis Taylor. In desperation I googled “George Clooney + glasses” and guess what: there is not a single photo of George Clooney wearing corrective lenses. Game Over.
|Glasses even make my Macbook Pro look crap|
My life is over.